Start over again....

So I try to hold on to the time that Nothing matters, thou I can't explain what had happen to me and I can't raise a thing I had done, No I can't. I try to make sound but everyone are too busy to listen to my cry. I knew I made my mistake and I got no where to run but I try to make it work but it really feels like I'm fading away...I don't think things can go on like this...I feel like I'm Blinded by the white Lie. I can't stand the pain even I try to make it go away....I'm sick of this Life...I wanna start over again, and I am trying to hold on, I have to knowing I can...Tired with such ppl around me, So sick of them. It's okay I promised myself to give the best shot. I don't care what the world think of me. I admit my mistake n I'm not running anymore I'm facing it and gonna win over it. I gonna do it...I can't do it alone, I need You and I know You are waiting at the door and I let You in...