Sorry

Was it my mistake?
I don't know what is going on with me! I am getting so pissed off! Urgh!!!
May b i should stop hoping and go on with my life as it is. I am aware sometimes I piss off alot but I'm not perfect!!! I'm me, juz another mere human on the face of earth! I don't understand u. I promise not to ask y so I won't ask. It's juzt that I don't know where I have made mistake. If I'm in wrong now, hit me let me know where i Have erred! i will never know unless U tell me. I'm not a saint u know.

So, I really tried being a good friend to u. I know the pain of being left pain of getting abounded, so I try my best to be there for u when u need me to. I don't want to justify my stand, No point of doing so, so I juz hope that i can tolerate u.
If I ever wanted to get mad at u, i would have many times b4. When u toss my laptop at ur bed and it fell (thou it was in the beg)i could get mad at u,coz that is not a dolar or two stuff, that laptop costs me more than 3k. but i knew it was not ur intention for it fell thou the thoughts of u tossing it makes me think tat u don't really care about it, still it's just an accident rite? N for countless other things u put me thru as i did put u thru and thnk u for being there for me, but tat is what friendship is, V give and take.

But am losing grip of myself. May b bcoz I start to treat u as 1 of my good friend, but it's very painful! I'm not sure if u or any1 is aware of this but yes, I'm hurt very hurt by ur n some others actions. i don't demand for much juz treat me as a friend, may b as someone who u know, don't use me than dump me aside! I can get hurt and this leaves a scar behind. May b u ask why I always talk about my friend in my hometown, how good they r and so on. But have u ever wondered y i always say so? It's so simple bcoz I can't find any like them! I'm being me but if that is u than I'm sorry, am sure this friendship won't last for very long! Since there is no honesty in us.

I love being friend with u and every1 else coz I'm happy to make new friends. For me friends r important. I treasure every one of my friend. Juz 1 thing I wonder r u the same? I'm not perfect thou, I make a lot mistake and if I have hurt u let me know. So i can change and apologies to u. So if I have hurt u, I'm SORRY. Hope we will be friends 4 ever. Thank u for sharing ur friendship with me and If I have miss understood or whatever la, pls do me a favour, LET ME KNOW. Take care.